New Year, New Decade

New Year, New Decade!  What are your new year's resolutions?  Not the ambitious ones you announce, slightly tipsy, when someone asks you at a party on the big night; nor the virtuous ones you make, feeling slightly wistful, when the next day dawns and finds life much the same  as it was before (which we all know it will be, but still can't help hoping otherwise, just in case...) No, the resolutions that matter are the groundswell ones that creep into your conscious from below, that you find lounging in your mind like intruders because you had no idea you felt that way, the things you recognize as inevitable and undeniable but had never thought you could do anything about.  And actually you can, and this is the time to do it and from that small change everything will be different.  And having acknowledged this you feel scared and a little reluctant, because there is always a sense of loss lurking beneath the excitement of new possibilities but all it takes is one tiny change and then the momentum of events will lead you on.  And you know it is the right decision because once you have made it, it feels utterly right.